Reflection

So up until very recently, I've always been such a perfectionist about my work that I'd often get overwhelmingly frustrated with my projects and give up without ever finishing them. They needed to be perfect and right and good-looking. So I never finished anything, and the things I did finish were just so overworked.

Recently, I kind of just adopted this sort of "screw this, screw everything, I don't give a shit anymore" kind of attitude because I was getting so frustrated. I was just like, "I'm done with this. I'm just gonna do it and get it over with whether it looks good or not." And I kind of figured everything I did would be crap once I started doing that.

But apparently, it worked out for the better. My work became more loose and carefree, and just so much nicer and better-looking. I like it a lot more, and I realize now that perfect isn't always better. Apparently perfection defeats its own purpose.

Sorry I have no art to share in this post. I'm just kind of reflecting. I'm happy now.

I might post something for you later tonight if I finish it. <3

Here's a quick little sketchbook painting of a random stock girl from deviantART. :)

Next one will be Kelsey Rakes, I think. Then Courtney. Then Marques.

Jury Portfolio 2

This is the second half of my jury portfolio. This one's all digital painting, though most of it is unfinished.

Random character from the novel I'm attempting to write.

Quick little 5-10 minute self portrait. Not really accurate, but whatever. Didn't really care at the time cause I was mad.

That was the same night I painted this. This wasn't part of my portfolio, though. I'd have gotten killed for that.

Future cover of the G.A. Project, which is still in the making.

And then there were two pieces that decided to be butts and not convert to JPEGs. Which is for the better, I guess. They need to be finished.

This is what I'm working on right now. It looks like somebody I've seen before, but I can't figure out who. I want the smoke to eventually look like a bird. Seeing it smaller makes me realize that something's wrong with her face. Marques Duggans should tell me what it is. <3

Jury Portfolio 2011

Yeah, so these are the 10 pieces that I put in my portfolio for Dreyfoos Juries this year. This was my last jury forever, and I'm not sure how I feel about it. Cause part of me likes the juries for the portfolio review, but part of me is just really glad it's over, just cause it's so much extra work and stress and scrambling to get everything together. But anyway, here it is.

The first five are from figure drawing:

This one was a week long figure study of our model, Talia. It frustrated the hell out of me during the process, but I'm happy with the result.

This was a self portrait which I intentionally left unfinished for the time being.

The next two were each half hour poses. They were created during a workshop with Eric Swangstu. I fell in love with the reductive technique he taught us. Talia was our model once again.

I actually dislike this one so much that I'm not going to give my commentary for it.

For some odd reason, the next five refuse to load, so I'll upload those a different time.

Hello

I've tried and failed at this artblog thing, but let's try it again and hope it works. I'm trying a new approach, which involves not actually giving a crap whether the work is finished or not. It's a blog. Not my portfolio.

Basically I'm here because deviantART.com has become more and more stuffed with mediocre artists over the years, and nobody important actually follows my work.

Lois Van Baarle and Johannes Vob, two of my favorite artists, and my good friend Marques Duggans have art blogs that I follow religiously, and I'm sort of hoping I can build a following like that. I know I'm going to start out with those few of my art school friends who will actually give a shit what I'm making. But hopefully people will know of me outside of my friends someday.

This is how I actually plan to get jobs. It's a very sad and pathetic approach, really.

=^.^= <3